A Different World

by Samantha Bolt

 

            It was a cold morning in February when the realization of my new life set in.  I had been pregnant for nine months, but it was not until the doctors were inducing my labor, did I feel the real shock of motherhood.  Having a baby at age seventeen would really change my whole life.  I was excited, yet scared of my new journey that was about to begin.  My daughter, Ciera, was a blessing that straightened out my life.  My social life, money situation, and priorities became different with Ciera’s birth.

            The words social and life really do not go together when one has a toddler running around the house.  I am so busy keeping up with her, going to school, and working, that I barely have time to sleep.  The idea of getting to do something relaxing for myself only comes in my dreams; these of course are short lived, since I do not get to sleep much.  There are times when my parents will watch Ciera overnight for me so I can have a little time with my boyfriend or my friends.  This is a huge present for me.  It is almost impossible to just pick up and go somewhere spontaneous; I would first have to find a babysitter, get Ciera a bag together, and then pay the sitter.  Having Ciera pretty much ended my “grown up” time; Ciera is now my social life.

            In addition to barely any social life, I now have barely any money.  My money situation has such a strain on it from buying diapers, clothes, and toys for my baby girl.  There is also the addition of doctor bills, rent, and several other bills motherhood and being on one’s own brings.  It is such a treat every blue moon when I get to buy something I want for myself.  Even though it is a struggle sometimes, my bills always get paid, and Ciera is always taken care of.

            Ciera’s birth also brought about a change in my priorities.  I no longer have the privilege of being lazy and having “me” time.  When I started college, I had to figure out what I was going to do with the rest of my life; I had to pick a career fast, so I would have a good job to provide for Ciera’s future.  Ciera’s birth no longer let me hang out with friends all night long, call out of work for no reason, or spend frivolous cash whenever I wanted to.  Now, everything I do is thought through.  Ciera put direction and priority in my life; she really was and is a blessing because she got me on the right track to success.

            Having a baby as a seventeen year old really changed my whole world. There are now certain things I would never do since I am a mother, and there are certain things I will never experience.  Ciera really changed my social life, money situation, and priorities.

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